i miss you so much...

i do, i really do miss you. it takes forever to forget you. and it will take forever for me to ever forgive myself for not spending enough time with you. for not fulfilling the promises i made to myself though you never knew. for not doing all the things that i wanted to do with you because i put it off all the time.

i forgot that you were aging too fast because i was young and i thought my life was long but yours was obviously almost over. i forgot that i had all the time that you had but you had it long before mine. i forgot that i cared about you more than i cared about my friends or anything else that i put before you because i was delusional. i forgot to tell you every week that i love you.

i love you, always and forever.