deciphering life

what if all i needed was a chance. no matter how remote. no matter how slim. a tiny chance is better than no chances.

when you embark on something new, you'll tend to lose some things that you used to have. friends may be sacrificed. things that were once important may seem unimportant all of a sudden. but i guess we all leave the shore and explore new oceans before we can find land again at one time or another. and we fear and lose and gain and fear and lose and gain all over again. we're never gonna get used to fearing and losing. but we wish we gain all the time.

lots of thoughts running through my head. tired. wish somebody could hear me out and give me something good to hear. when we were all younger, talking seemed so easy. we could talk forever about the things that troubled us. and somehow the advices seemed all good. even if they're not, they manage to make you feel better. but they don't anymore. people start listening without advising because they're afraid they'll say the wrong things. we used to live in denial and a lot of self-consolation. but we can't anymore. reality of life has hit us at some point or maybe we don't really know when but it has happened.

maybe that's what blogs are for. maybe dogs aren't our best friends. maybe blogs are. i don't know, just kinda crapping.

we're all waiting for that something that will make life a life that you wanna live forever.